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Alrighty then..
Its 3:49pm and we just got back from morrisons (sunday 'big shop' lmfao). Ive just finished unpacking it all.
Todays been alright I think.. and yesterday was okay. Things seem to be going well at the moment =D.
Only 2 more weeks left of year 10.. then its summer holidays!! YAY!!!
Rach said she might be comin down here.. and I'm gonna go up there if I can.. so it should rule. Ive got soo much stuff to do.. Spend loads of time with Rachael, hang out with Polly.. Convince my mum to let me get some money out of the bank for some drums.. haha =P
Cant wait til my birthday.. I'll be 16 in feb, which means I'm old enough to get my lip pierced without consent.. and you'll have to kill me to stop me. I cant wait!

Yesterday I found out that my nans in hospital.. gallstones or something. Shes coming out tomorrow so its alright. Thing is.. shes been in since last monday.. and my dad never thought to let us know. Hes a fuckin prick.

So anyways, all in all everythings alright. Schools going alright, i did pretty well in my mock GCSE's. I just have to focus on coursework now.. if i do well in that i should be well on my way to getting good grades.. which is where it all start :)
ill update again soon :)
-x-

Well hello!
I havent wrote in here for aaagggeeessssssss so I'm gonna update.
I've done pretty much nothing since my last post. Its half term and when I go back it will be my last term of year 10. I have a like a year left.. Which is crazy, its gone sooo fast.
Anyways, during the holidays I've done pretty much nothing. On sunday I went to huddersfield to see Jit cuz apparently she wanted to see me.
Rach didnt want me to go and I felt soooo bad, she told me not to get drunk which is understandable so I agreed.
When I got there I met Jit and Will at the train station then went to tesco and Will bought a bottle of vodka and two bottles of WKD (all big bottles) for us to drink. Then we went to the park. She gave me a drink but was too pissed to notice I was pouring it on the floor instead of drinking it.
Being with them reminded me how much I didnt miss Jit. I spent so much time being caught up in her, being messed around by her, and now I dont care at all.
The only thing I wanted to do while I was there was leave. She was trying to convince me to stay at wills house with her, but I really didnt want to and knew Rach wouldnt want me to, so I came home.
I was actually jealous. Seeing her and will all over each other, talking about being with each other all the time. It just reminded me that I hardly ever get to see Rachael. I miss her sooo much it hurts. Maybe its kinda mean but I think I deserve to be with her more than they deserve to be with each other.
since then I've done fuck all. Ive been home pretty much the whole time. Either online talking to Rach or on the phone with her.
Todays been shit. I was in bed watching friends most of the day. Then I came downstairs and came on here just before my brother got home. The moment he came in he started on both me and my mum. And why did he have such a massive fit? thretend to "crush" mums skull?.. Because I DARED to eat 2 slices of garlic bread that happend to be his. I mean how pathetic?!.. Its not like they were the only 2 slices left.. There was a whole thing.. I took 2 slices..
Its starting again. This is how he was before. It wont be long until hes hitting me again, until I'm scared of coming home incase hes in, until I have to hide in my room until mum gets home, until I feel the hairs on the back of my neck stand up everytime he walks past me just incase he hits me... But this time I'm not going to let him get the best of me. I'm better than he is. After he's burnt his bridges here, He has no where to go, No one to run to.
He scammed my grandad out of about £300. My dad wants nothing to do with him. And my mum isnt going to stand for it this time.
All it takes is time.
-x-

Alright well I feel better after that rant. So I'm gonna update with something useful.
Okies so today I went for my interview with my work experience place (Barrister people) and I think it went well, he liked what I was wearing and seemed nice. He asked me questions and I think I answerd them pretty well and I asked him some questions which usually looks good in interviews. So yeah, I start tuesday. He told me that I'll be going to court and sitting with him in the barristers bit, not just in the public area, which is really really cool because not many people (other than barristers and shit) get to sit there. Also he told me that if they said it was ok, I can go with him to the cells and talk to the people hes defending which would rule. He'll be looking at cases like murder, rape, child abuse... Which is cool in a way, but kinda scary.. If you think that I might actually be sat in a room with a man convicted of murder or rape =| but I'm looking forward to it. Obviously I wont be able to write about what happens cuz I'll know everything about the cases and stuff and its all confidential so I'm not allowed to talk about it with anyone else... which will be hard lmao.
He's going to send me some info about barristers and court and what its all about before I start so I'll have some idea what I'm doing, which usually helps. And he also said hes paying for my dinner \m/ lmfao cant be bad.
Thats pretty much all I've done today, didnt go to school.. and its an teacher training day tomorrow so I wont be at school for 2 weeks cuz of work experience.. then it will almost be the end of year 10... which has gone REALLY fast.
Anyways, thats it, End.
-x-

Fucking RAR!!!!
I'm so fuckin' pissed off right now.. first thing my digital cameras gone missing and i have a pretty good idea who took it. Chris. but obviously hes not gonna admit it.. so when we asked him if hed seen he he fuckin had a fit going on about how everyone thinks he steals stuff and shit.. and we never even mentioned stealing it.. we just asked if hed seen it.. but no one can prove it.. so its just something else he'll get away with. THEN he made fuck loads of mess looking for his bank card and then just went out and left it.. so guess who gets made to tidy it up.. yeah.. ME! i mean ffs.. hes almost 18 and i have to fuckin clean up after him. i fucking hate him.
As if that wasnt enough.. while i was looking for my digital camera.. i decided to check see if it was in his room and i found Rachaels friends dvds in his fucking room. He asked me if he could lend them and i said no cuz they werent mine and i didnt want him to break them like he usually does with stuff cuz he doesnt put them back in their cases... but hes gone into my room and took them anyway.. and again, no one says a thing because they know he'll have a fit, like we're the ones whos done something wrong. im fucking sick of it. he does whatever the fuck he likes and no one says anything. he owes mum loads of money and says he hasnt got it.. yet shes just took him to rent a dvd and buy fuck knows what else.. with the money he supposedly hasnt got. hes a fuckin liar and i hate him. I HATE HIM. im so fucking pissed off.. but i cant write anymore cuz i have to go tidy up the mess he made because other wise ill get shouted at for not doing it... yeah.. cuz yknow.. im the one that made the mess.. yeah.. right..
I HATE HIM
x

Yay!!!!
Ive finally done all my media coursework so now I just need to finish off my english and I've dont it all.
Today I havent really done anything, I woke up at about half 11 and got out of bed about 12. Then I came down stairs and came online where I finished off my coursework and put it onto disk so I can print it off at my aunts cuz my printers fucked.
Ugh.. School tomorrow, I'm not really that botherd about going back, its just the thought of getting up at 7 =/
School its self should be alright, its gonna be cool to see everyone again and stuff and I wont get into trouble for not doing coursework for a change. So yay!
So yeah, I'm pretty much outta stuff to say, I've done fuck all today but I've still got to go to my aunts to print everything out.
Then thats it!

Weekend!!
Usually I like weekends but this one just means its almost time for school again and I still have soo much to do. I didnt do any coursework yesterday, so I have to do it all today, thats gonna take me ages.
I still dont have a placement for work experience and that starts on the 3rd of May and they need to know in advance and stuff so I have no idea what I'm gonna do about that.
Ohwell...
Apart from that most things are good, yesterday my mum went out and Chris's girlfriend, Stacie, came to our house. We all ordered pizza and got vodka and beer and watched Dvds so that was pretty cool. She's really nice, She paid for everything. Also she gave me the present that she brought back from holiday for me, its like a sand picture thing and it rules, its black and red to go with my room, Bless her.
Today I have no idea what I'm gonna do, except coursework. Oh the joy.
Its sunny!!! I like it when its sunny, makes me all happy.. I just wish Rach was here so we could go to town or something, Town rules when its sunny.
Alright well I'm done.

Okies so I made a new Livejournal because my other one was getting old. I'm gonna try and write in this almost everyday, or as much as I can. Its cool to be able to look back on the things thats happend and I suck at keeping a diary so hopefully this will work :)

Well its Friday, The holidays are almost over and I still have loads to do.
Rachael left yesterday and I miss her more than I knew I could, its so strange, over the last 5 days I'd just got used to her being here and now shes gone it feels weird, I dont like sleeping alone and I dont like waking up without her. I guess its alright though because I know I'll see her again, Just dont know when. Long distance relationships SUCK.
Today I'm not really doing anything, I have to go to my aunts to print some stuff off for school, Fun fun.